Tuesday, July 31, 2012

My dear Gracie Jane,

Today you have one emotional postpartum mommy.
I cry when I think about how grateful I am for the many miracles we have seen in this past week.
When I think of all the people who have fasted and prayed and visited the temple especially with you in mind, I cry tears of gratitude.
I cry when I think about how much I miss you, how much I want you to come home.
I want you to see all the presents people keep bringing for you and I want to wrap you up in all your own clothes without worrying about all the monitors and PICC lines.
I want to feed you when you want to be fed.
I want to wake up to your stirrings, and not to the pain in my breasts reminding me that you are not there.
I am so glad you are just a short car ride away, and that you are in a good hospital with excellent nurses.
I'm so grateful to the angels who have answered my prayers and who watch over you when I can't be with you. I know they are there all around you.


I pray that your temperature will stay down, that we won't see any more blood in your stools, that you can finish up your antibiotics soon, and that you can tolerate the feedings with great satisfaction.
Your daddy loves you so much. I have never seen him so smitten!
Please know that these mortal bodies really are great.
And most of all, please know that I love you.
I miss you.
Come home soon.
Love,
Mommy
You are my angel.

Every minute with you brings me pure happiness!

I will treasure you always.

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

40.5 weeks of pregnancy! Boo-yah.

Wow...did I jinx myself or what?!
This baby is still not wanting to come!
I never once thought I'd need to read the sections on "The Overdue Baby" and "Do-it-Yourself Labor Induction" ideas in What to Expect When You're Expecting.
Truly, I thought she'd be here by now!

I am still not desperate enough to drink any castor oil or walk 26.2 or jump on any loose-your-bladder-forever-trampoline. I have tried bleacher walking at the rodeo, taking bumpy car rides, long walks, spicy food, and Cody's veggie juice concoction made special for me and ya know what? I suppose this chica will come as soon as she is darn well ready...or as soon as I get my visiting teaching done...I WILL do that today.

To keep positive Cody & I have started doing a "date-a-day" since...we never know which date will be our LAST just the two of us.
>Rodeo
>Cafe Rio
>Trafalga mini golf
>7 Peaks...Lazzzzy Riverrr. A quick note about 7 peaks...if you are pregnant, your 'medical condition' will allow you to take your food/water bottles into the park! Everyone else takes their goodies to the picnic area...I got to take mine to my wee patch of shade. What a great perk..
>Window shopping at the mall...walk walk walk.
>Movie night at the theater
>Movie night at home
>MountainWest Burrito
And we may need to start repeating a few ideas here soon. :)

Several people due AFTER me have had their babies already...what?! But many moms who carried longer than 40 weeks are coming out of the wood-work and I love them! You are amazing.




A few of my favorite things over the last 40 weeks:


1. Like I said, What to Expect When You're Expecting: Probably my favorite pregnancy guide. I liked it even more than my OB textbook!
2. Listen, I waited way to long to get me a good pair of black stretchy yoga pants. Lots of ladies like the leggings...but this style was way better for me {and anybody else who might see me}. Definitely my favorite thing to wear now-a-days.
3. Short-sleeve cardigans: I definately love to layer--which gets tricky in the summer time! But sometimes I just felt so tiny if I had a cardigan that buttoned up at the top and gave just let my belly play "peek-a-boo". Loved these short sleeve cardi's with dresses, long flowing shirts, or just a plain old shade shirt.
4. A modest short sleeve shirt that doesn't need layering: A MUST for summer! It is hard to find pregnancy shirts that don't need a shade or an extra cami underneath because maternity designers seem to be all about the BUST because hey I guess when you got it most women wanna flaunt it... hello, not me. I found mine at H&M and the red one here says it's only $9.97 >>>steal.
5. Bran Flakes: I have always loved these but they have been great this pregnancy!! I ate them plain on the couch in the beginning w/ the morning sickness---you know when you don't feel like anything and something dry and bland is all you can handle?? Bran flakes. Plus, the fiber helps keep you regular so you don't have to worry about constipation people tell you about.
6. Tums: have a child kicking everything you eat back up your esophagus? Pop two of these in and oh it calms to flames in your throat. I always thought these things were way over-rated. No way. Bless the man that figured out a little calcium can cure such an ailment!
7. A nice stretchy skirt: I happened upon mine at Old Navy before I was pregnant, and it worked through the whole pregnancy. Light, breezy, and worked for Church! Hallelujah!
8. A belly band. LOVE MINE SO MUCH. Had a terrible time finding maternity pants and so this let me wear my favorite pre-pregnancy jeans for way longer. Can fold it down under your belly {my favorite} or pull it up for smoothing, etc. Just some nice coverage and security--who doesn't want that?!

What are your pregnancy favorites?
Or, better yet, what are your new baby favorites that I should be sure to have when this chica finally decides to come?? :) Do tell!

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

Full Term...and Counting...

A little while ago a man at the mall stopped me and had the most excited look on his face.
He said, "are you going to have a baby?!"
I had to smile, because of his sweet question despite the
oh-so-obvious answer.
I said "yes"
He said "when is it coming?"
I said "July"
He said "a firework baby?!"
And I just had to smile even more because yes...this is a firework baby!!
She's my little sparkler.
I can't wait to meet her face!

Sounds like she is not quite ready yet...
I'm ok for now...because I still get panic attacks thinking about the whole LABOR thing.
BUT I don't want her to pull a Cody and hang out in there 2 weeks past her due date...!


It will definitely be weird NOT being pregnant anymore.
Not feeling her rumble around inside me?? Sad, I just love that!
But it might be nice to have full bladder capacity?! Or even 75% would be nice. 

It has been so nice to be out of school. 
I've finally been able to work on my "Before Baby Do List"
*wash and fold her clothes---check.
*organize the back entryway---check. thank you Cody. 
*organize the closet in her room---almost there. 
*pack hospital bag---I think we have the essentials together.
*Trim hair---check. 
*Clean out fridge and freezer---procrastinating.
etc.  


I battle waves of energy/nesting-mania and 
waves of exhaustion and a desire to do nothing but sit and read. 
Sometimes I just sit in her little nursery.





Things I have been enjoying lately: 
*popsicles
*watermelon, always.
*orange julius
*raspberries
*beans and rice
*Ice cold water

I can hardly wait for all the fireworks and sparklers July will bring!