Life is a Grain of Sand

Life is short, but love is long. Thank goodness. This past week my Cody was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. Well, the MRI shows indications that are "highly suspicious" for MS. Tomorrow is the lumbar puncture or spinal tap, and that will confirm everybody's suspicions I'm sure. It has been a series of miracles that has brought us to this point. ---My class, studying the symptoms, types and treatments of this autoimmune disease right after his symptoms reappear---symptoms he's had for at least the past year, probably longer. Magically meeting a neurologist at my work who gets Cody in for a cancelled appointment slot the next day, though he's booked out for a month....

I feel great appreciation for the nursing program, for my teachers. It has blessed my life already. Although I feel the Lord has known about Cody's MS, he has slowly prepared me for it. But it still broke my heart to look at the pictures of his brain {the fascinating organ that makes Cody's body function and makes him my Cody} and see the lesions there. I cried and cried.

I was a wreck, but Cody has been so amazingly faithful and strong. He compensates for me in every way. Already though, this has brought me amazing perspective and love and gratitude. I already feel closer to Cody {something I never thought possible} and such a great appreciation for the knowledge that we will be always together. And I realized that the time we are together that we battle multiple sclerosis will only be like a single grain of sand on an endless beach of timeless bliss that we're together. The rest of forever he will be perfectly Cody. I'm so grateful for our Savior for that. I'm grateful for our sweet families who have supported us through it all, teaching us and loving us. My mom reminded me that the gift of healing is already secured for everyone---Christ conquered the grave, and so will we all! She said it is the spiritual healing that we must secure for ourselves----it will never just be given to us.

I feel blessed that Multiple Sclerosis is not an inoperable brian tumor, it is not Lou Gehrig's or paralysis from an accident. We still have lots of time in this temporary life for me to beat him in Skip Bo, give him bad hair cuts in our kitchen, and burn all his dinners. In it all, I'm happy, I'm excited for what we can have as as result of working through something hard together. Quite an adventure! Already I found there is a 3 mile walk for MS in Salt Lake @ the Gateway by the National Society of Multiple Sclerosis---it's on our 1st anniversary of all days-- I'm going to rally a team and we're going to have awesome t-shirts!! :) I LOVE CODY, FOREVER!!